Perspective

So much have happened in my life over the past few months and I have experienced a roller coaster of emotions. Being overwhelmed has been the most dominant emotion. I literally feel as if my new reality isn’t my reality. As if its a never ending nightmare. Confused, scared, worried, sad. Why? Maybe because so much is happening over a short period of time. Maybe because my expectations about what my life is supposed to be, seems to be distant and impossible. Maybe because I don’t know how to adapt to change so rapidly. Or maybe because I don’t know what will happen next. Would good things happen after all these bad things already occurred? Thing is, I really am not sure. And I am learning that all I can do is just try. Try to live, try to adapt, try to be happy, try to enjoy the little things, try to let go of all the pain and anxiety, try to breathe and let life happen, try to go with the flow but still be mindful of all that is happening around me and act sensibly. How can I do that when I am constantly feeling lost or scared? Change my perspective. Make sense of these new changes and feelings and channel such awareness to create a new perspective. A perspective where I see things exactly as they are and determine how I will use these obstacles to move forward and develop my mind, body and soul. A perspective where I see these problems as an opportunity to challenge myself and go forward. A perspective of progress. A perspective of taking care of myself regardless of how people treat me and think of me, A perspective of self care, love and acceptance of who I am. These are the perspectives I want to see. Maybe you want to see them to.

I won’t lie, its not at all easy. But I have to stop feeling sorry for myself and just keep going. I already been through so much. And I know I can get through this although it may take some time. It requires a new level of strength, wisdom, mindset and dedication. And yes, there will be days when I slip and I remember my old perspectives and all the pain and I may cry as I already do. But that’s okay. As long as I don’t stop moving forward. Cry but then wash your face and move on boldly. Self talk is a great tool. It can break you or make you. What you tell yourself can help you rise to the challenge or it can make you fall back down. Nobody can do this for you or me.